well then...

So this last few months have been all over the place emotionally, financially, and mentally. I can say with great surety, that my childhood had no semblance of normalcy... this is not new to me in any form, but without divulging too much here (you'll have to wait for my biography for that), I will say that new memories are surfacing as to events and how they actually happened in my life. This is bringing up some old issues for sure. Although I am in a better place to handle the barrage of emotions that I was few months back. The absence of constant anger, fighting, and being called horrific things has had a good effect on me overall... a few months ago this might have sent me into a tailspin that I would just shut down from, and stop functioning for a while. As it stands, these new memories and information made me sad for a day or two, but no falling apart here. I am thankful that this info is coming now and not before I had this amount of emotional strength.

On other news I am itching to start a new band... so I think that is coming sooner rather than later... I will be posting stuff on the bulletin board at the music store soon as well as wherever else. Not sure yet what kind of group I want to get together... I kinda want a blues trio, which means only needing a drummer and bass player... but that also means I will be doing all the lead guitar work, which I could do, but I'd want to practice a bit on that, and get comfortable with my band mates, because this would be the first time for me not having a "lead guitarist". I think I am ready for the challenge and really how many woman fronted blues trios that can rock have you seen??? Not many I am sure if ANY at all! I think it could be a very hot commodity so long as we are as good as I want us to be :) I am a bit of a perfectionist with my music (okay with anything creative) so I know if the music is up to my standards, the people will think we are great, cause we will be.

So I think overall, I am gaining myself back.. it is a long road back to myself, but I can see that I am on my way, looking back it's like a mile or two into my run, I am not done yet, but if I turn around I know I have covered some decent distance.