I am starting to feel like I am getting my power back a little. One of my close friends commented that to me the otehr day. I feel rather good today, so I am going to get another good days work done in my studio... I have so many ideas, I need to get out, as well as orders that need to be filled, so I think this whole week I will be working as much as I have time and energy for, whatever that ends up being. I feel like things are starting to move again, I have felt very static lately. So this is good feeling things get unstuck. I also plan to go to yoga on the beach this week, at least once.

Well, I am progressing fairly fast in my post heartbreak I suppose, but I absolutely need to learn how not to let him get under my skin.

I am going for a run today, so I am reconnecting with myself again. This is good. But I drove my son to the busstop and was gonna drive somewhere and run, but when I got there, my MP3 battery was dead, so I came home to charge it... I am running for fun, and my music is a MAJOR part of that. This morning I just needed it, not that I can't run without music, but I prefer not to... it helps me so much while running.

Well I am keeping it brief today... I want to run before it starts warming up too much. :)

Roller Coaster

Okay I have been thinking a lot lately about my relationship that just ended as well as all the time we were together and how much I lost myself being with this man. As it stands right now, I don't want to get back together, but it does suck, and hurt a LOT.

I feel like I am riding a roller coaster ride... sometimes I am strong and happy about this, other times I can not stop crying. Nights are harder I think, because I am used to him being around then.. at least during the week when he's not going out to bars.

I started writing a new song yesterday, something I have not done in a LONG time. I need to get my hands on some recording gear for me to play with... I am wasting my talent by not playing. I didn't actually quit playing consciously even... it was just kind of a systematic thing of playing less and less, and then I just wasn't playing anymore. I got tired of having a fight before every gig, and getting crap about practice days, plus the band drama on top of my home drama, some drama needed to go, and I guess I was just not ready to let go of my relationship yet. Well as much as it hurts now, I am totally ready. My house is half redone after he left.... I haven't had the time and desire at the same time to do the rest, but I am looking around thinking, I need to. I have art that he didn't want on the walls, so here it sits in a pile, now it is time to put it on the walls... this is MY house, and I want art and music stuff all over... that reflects my interests and passion.

I found a new yoga meetup on the beach that meets three times a week, so I am gonna start going there as time permits. The teacher has 36 year of teaching Exp.... so as long as I have been alive, pretty much! And I have never practiced with a teacher, something I know would be good for me. It will be a great supliment to my running... I ran once this week, not much but a start. Next week I will run more, and go to yoga at least once.

Right now I gotta make supply orders, get them mailed and work on my house. I have not made a single new piece of jewlery this week, but I am actually okay with that for now. I will make somethign at the show tomorow and take pics so I can do another tutorial. Sunday I will start sumitting my tutorials to jewelrylearning.com. I have been aproved for teather status over therre... so might as well startt getting the process going! This willo supliment my summer income, cause the market will not be going through summer.